*SIGH* This has been an extremely long weekend. Thursday night (5-24-2012) I went over to mom & dad's because I was bored. Tab & Mom were working on her collages and Tab was VERY ornery. And I got really upset because Tab only had one picture of me, her big sister, the only big sister she has. It sounds idiotic, but I've talked to Tab so many times about how I don't feel apart of the family and then she did this. I was so upset and she didn't get it at all. I talked to her about it on Friday and it really didn't seem like she listened to me because she said that Dad had told her that once you get married you don't need to be around your family much at all.Then she said she needed to go to the bathroom and I think it was just an excuse to get out of the conversation. I told her I loved her no matter, because I do but I was extremely upset. That night was graduation and since Jesse was there, she didn't really care who else was there. it was better than some other times, but she still needs to realize that it's not all about him.
Saturday, I took Lydia and Rebekah with me to get stuff for grad gifts. We were in Shopko and Bekah tripped me, but I thought it was Lydia and I smacked her then blamed her for tripping me and she got really mad, I tried talking to her, but she was really mad, then she started crying, my sweet sister who is so free spirited and doesnt seem bothered by anything, was CRYING. That broke my heart and made me feel like a complete heel. I apologized so many times and she told me saying sorry doesn't mean anything if there aren't actions behind it. Finally at the end of the day, she told me it wasn't that I smacked her (which is what she originally told me), but that I had blamed her for something that she didn't do.
Sunday, was the open house for Tab & Mary. Tab was ornery because she wanted everything this way or that way and getting mad if it was not put in a certain place that was better than where she had it. I guess it got better throughout the day. But I snapped at Lydia at the beginning of the day because I was stressed about not having my memory card. I apologized to her later and she seemed ok. Jason had to go home early because Murphy (turner) was screeching. Came home after visiting Cindy Turner's open house and about 10 min later, Tab called saying I had to get over now because she was going to open gifts. She didn't seem that impressed with any of her gifts, even the money. Her & Jesse were going to another open house and I guess that was more important. She really just seems to be all about herself lately (well I'm not around her all that much) and it really pisses me off because she didn't get to where she's at by herself, she had help, from church family, friends.
Monday-Heather's open house, we were walking up to the Snead's house and a little van with Jesse, Tab, Hannah, Bekah & Lydia were all leaving because they were tired of being there. They'd only been there an hour and a half, kinda dumb they were already leaving, but whatever. I had a fun time visiting with everybody, especially the dogs. I always enjoy hanging out with Christina and I talked some to the Schaefferites :) I like hanging out and talking to everybody, it keeps me from being bored at home.
LONG WEEKEND and so many emotions, many, many emotions.
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