and the beat goes on!

Ok so so many things going on lately. I guess I'll start with the new Pastor. I thought things were ok, but then days went by and he really started getting on my nerves :( First off, with as much as I love animals, the way he talked about animals just turned me off, but then he was like, I like dogs, I just think they should be outside (well that's dumb), then we were talking about the coffee at church and he said I don't drink Folgers and I was like oh you're a coffee snob and he's like yep. Then a couple days later, he was talking to Adam and they were talking about coffee and I mentioned that he didn't drink Folgers and he was like no it's fine, I drink it. LIE!!!! And he's very, very touchy feely. That's gonna have to stop it.I don't know there's just something about him that's really bugging me. And he's always telling me everyone's life stories. Probably things that people don't want other people to know. Ok, 2nd thing, there was a funeral today for Emma Tonak, Jake & Rachel's 2 month old. I never met her because she was born in KY and to be honest, we've never been close friends and that brings me to my first emotion of the day. What friends do I have that would come to my aid no matter what. Those 3 families are thicker than blood. I do know that Christina would have my back no matter what, but who else is there? Jake had an amazing speech and that took a lot of God power behind that being the dad. It was an amazing message of God's love. I had a hard time with any emotions, sad emotions because, well I think it's because I don't have any kids. I don't have that connection. What I'm struggling with is WHY?? Why would God allow the Tonaks to miscarriage, allow them to have another baby, then take that baby away after only 2 months?? No one is going to understand that this side of Heaven. One of my favorite things that Jake said was those who have Chirst have HOPE and how sad for those who have NO HOPE. We can't even fathom what's to come. More later on these stupid infusions!!!